CogSci

Failure is inevitable... Whaaa I just want this day to be OVERRRRR =[ BAD

On alternate news, last night's Dragonette concert was BLOODY AWESOME!!! As good as expected, maybe better =] Got signature!!! Yeah I now have experienced a moment of groupie mentality XD omggg cute drummer boy!!! <3

-L

Not kewl...

I just got ten thousand mosquito bites everywhere...

one right under my neck (as in it looks like a necklace -.-), one on the back of my right hand near the bone of the wrist, one about an inch down from that same bone, one on my right elbow (my right arm is evidently tastier), one next to my left eye (yes, EYE, as in FACE)... and gawd knows where else that hasnt started being red and/or itchy yet...

=[

-L

Monkey see monkey do...

2 more notes to add to my previous post:

1. I hate papercuts... especially when it's a huge scar-gash on my thumb made by a FOLDER... yes, no more papercuts, but cardboard cuts... oh it runs deep =[ And before coming up on the elevators from lunch I decided to use the hand sanitizers... they have alcohol in them =[ ...

2. I had always thought, until this week - the final week, that to open the doors from the inside one had to push on the door to instigate its automatic movement (because they are heavy). Apparently not. On monday/tuesday I saw a co-worker just STAND in front of the door and a second later it swung open. Now I know. I must've looked quite idiotic and/or constantly hurried when pushing on the door all those times... >.>

-L

What I've learned... CO-OP 1

So I just had my 5 minute evaluation from my boss... which sort of inspires me to write a little summary of some general observations as well as what I learned at my time here at Finance and things I need to learn in the future to ... generally be awesome (=P):

(I did not list these in order of importance)

1. I like to work - when there is work. I don't seem to mind the type of work, as long I am motivated by the underlining purposes, which I was here. Indolence makes me tired, sick, and creates further lethargic behaviours.
2. I hate not being focused. I can't seem to do personal "work" when I am at work... this better not be some underlining ethics issue, or I shall be pissed.
3. I like my boss. A nice person who's just a little off (which I like!), and whose certain actions makes me giggle. XD. He is very helpful and real... tells it like it is! I appreciate that, more than I knew.
4. Working for the government without understanding French is not fun... I have a sneaking doubt that my boss cannot speak French either. Kudos to us! But learning this language is now a lifetime goal... SOB
5. I really like Post-It Notes, of many sizes. Both doodling and writing actual useful/important correspondences/reminders are AWESOME on Post-Its.
6. I am a perfectionist in regards to REALLY UNimportant things... like scanning a document: if it's tilted just a bit... redo the whole thing (which is like 20 pages). I need to change this outlook.
7. I hate printers. Evidently the feeling is mutual.
8. I like MS Outlook.
9. It takes me an abysmally long time to draft/edit email correspondences. Speed this!
10. I need to be more detail-oriented. I have never understood the full impact of this quality. Now I do. "Minor" mistakes are way too embarassing, when amassed (which I have a tendency to do). I will need to make the radar that are these wandering eyes to be more focused and able to detect those "minor" errors...
11. Talk properly, woman! It's all good in my head. It's all good on paper. My ideas are out there, my points expressed. But this SPEAKER SYSTEM needs MAJOR improvement... maybe some bolts and screws are OFF... ::mumble mumble::


Some other notes outside of work:
1. I LOVE my friends! I LOVE doing new and interesting stuff, whether I'm coerced to it or not! (it's like: no duh =P but it means a lot). I shall seek out new things to do in the future... be coerced as well as coerce others. ;)
2. I dont mind watching movies in theatre by myself... I actually feel more focused that way. YAY District 9!!!


on a still reflective note: I need to read that book yo... and study that evil thing =[


-L

Major Effing Issues.

Okay, so this is the first weekend where I don't have a midterm to study for on monday...
but that's not saying much considering next week is the last week of classes... >.> so my prog is f'ed up. XD

But saying that just makes me feel even more stupid and useless... because I have not yet accomplished anything <.< ...

It's not that I don't want to. It's probably because I have no courage. But mostly it's because I am frozen. And I run. Yes I'm a moving snowperson >.> My humour is gone to hell recently too... so that's probably not a good sign... When that leaves me, I might as well be nonexistent.

Must drown self in sorrows by shopping until my checkbook bleeds XD no, but prolly not. XD

Anyway I'm seriously considering the chicken way out of this... to partially ease myself, but it's sooo against my dignity... >.> sigh, I dont think I have much of that left either.
But maybe that's a good thing.

Anyway, 3 more assignments + Presentation, and iz EXAM TIME.

Can't wait for first semester to be over.

Can't wait for a new beginning. Maybe then I can change.

-L

Something Over, Something Begins... everything f'ed

Well... I finished my AP exams last two weeks... so that's a relief. now before i can even breathe easy, I have acc summ and eng summ (thank goodness iz been pushed back to next week)

I've wasted the long weekend playing a certain RPG game... lolz... no it's not that one. i would kill myself if it was that again... haha anyway i just feel that my life is a big mary-go-round and i'm getting tired of the routine, even the stress... which used to be something out of the ordinary has now become a normality. i've been sleeping wayyy too late and waking up wayyy to late, and my body is feeling the strain - i've had a cold for 2 weeks now... a friend said i shud check for sars but i think iz just my bad sleeping and eating habits.

also, i've been drifting more and more into my other world - which i had occasionally stepped into before (esp on long bus rides, hopefully scenic)... but now i'm deeper into it and spend longer periods of time there than is healthy for a sane person, i s'pose i just need the higher dosages (no, i'm not doing drugs -_-)

and that game is not helping.

i really like something a char said tho: "I got into gambling because gambling is like life in little bursts. Life is a big gamble, you know."

I know it's nothing special or unique or new, but it's definitely a good thought to hold onto... and I just realize my left hand takes over more than half of the keyboard space.. I mean I even use my left hand to press Y as well as B... at least H is part of my right hand territory...

I wish I could still write with my left hand...

-L