Stop Caring About Black Marks on a Sheepskin Paper

Sheepskin paper is referred to as the diploma - it was briefly mentioned in one of my HR classes - no idea how it's relevant but I like the expression so I'm using it.

The other day I was setting up my course schedule for the next 3 years of university life. I was quite happy because I was able to fit CO math major with marketing concentration with psych minor without going too much overboard - have to take 2 courses in winter co-op term and 1 term has six courses - no biggie.

But then I heard about statistics courses related to survey design and experimental design, which are things I'm interested in... but I had always rejected stats other than the required courses for my degree because I hated probability.

I reviewed my course schedule and noticed a lot of the courses I'm taking are to satisfy a requirement, not because I'm interested in the course material - this applies to 50% of the psych minor courses.

I noticed for CO and marketing that the choices I picked are for courses I could find interesting/useful (mostly interesting, I don't much care about usefulness). So those 2 are going to stay, even though I am rather confuzzled on how CO is going to relate to what I do in the future - but who cares about that.

So I've decided to not do a psych minor - but still take social psych, social cognition, personality theory which are the courses I am still interested in.

I've also decided to take some design-based stat courses in order to help out my marketing research path.

But I just have to get rid of the mentality for having things written on my sheepskin paper in 3 years.

It's simply psychological.

-L

It's a brand new world...

no more calculus!!!

no more lin alge (forgot to update earlier...teehee)!!!

-L

Hell

Math239 Midterm tmr. Fail rate = 90% Update: I dont THINK I failed... but can't be sure...
Update 2: Fuck My Life. I died in this -_-


Essay due Thurs. Will spend all of Friday doing this (Update: nope)... until my eyes are gnawed out and my mind goes insane... (Update: yes... after watching mindless shows)
Update 2: due in 2 days. <________< c'monnnn --__--

Math235 Midterm Tues. Wkend cramming required.
Update 2: w/e. crashed and burned on all the easy stuff... yay nonexistant memory.


OB Test3 Wed. Wkend cramming required again. <- w/e to this.
Update 2: Not doing this. So final is now worth 60%. yay.

After this week I shud be able to breathe... sigh.

-L

Affirmation

So it was actually 2 hours, not 2.5 (which was plenty of time, I suppose).

The questions left me with an uneasy feeling... but let's hope I somehow made it past 50%. It's not so much dread, as I have no fucking idea what happened (not so much the material, but just... the process?). ::zombie::

Anyway, the affirmation is that I will not do economics anymore... this course was required (I better pass), but anything beyond... no way man - or maybe I just had a generally neutral/negative experience with econ courses... (one AP, one in-class, and one DE - prolly not the best combination, but I'll just stop it here) Speaking of which, this is how I ruled out science... it's working out so far XD, not that I know any other perspective.

That's the end... closing the MANY chapters of economics.


Psych is kewl though (but I only had one DE, so I'll see after the in-class one coming fall...) XD

-L

Failure rate...

... is very high... (and I mean the 50% one yo XD)

doom is inevitable.

Sigh, should have paid more attention to the evils of Microeconomics... I bet there wont be graphs provided =[

2.5 hrs... is that enough to brute force reason through 20 T/F 20 MC and 3 Calculations? XD

We shall see then.


-L

JobFair Epic Fail

1. I got there really late because of unforeseen circumstances and the scarcity of supply vs. demand. oh how economics laugh at me now.

2. It takes a long time to get there.

3. JobFair filled with people looking for graduates/full time/laurier biz students (yawr, seriously for the last bit - diff coop systems)

4. I got back at 4:30... missing my stats test (forfeiting... so I must ace the rest of them)

oddly, I dont feel too bad about it now. But I know it's gonna come back and bite me in the ass soon... but w/e I'll deal if/when it happens

-L

Things to Do

in order of important/immediate need:

1. Read biz stuff + do worksheet for it / Group Case. (right now, done before 5 pm)

2. STUDY STATS sec 4.1-5.1 (test on wed ahhhhh) (done before wed) >.>

3. Prep for job fair on wed (shud still go to all classes) (done before wed)

4. Do Calc... (at wed i s'pose... spilling in thurs)

week end stuff:

5. STUDY ALGE!!! (before midterm on monday)

6. Do CS assn 4

7. Finish Biz Group Case

next week stuff:

8. Stats Quiz/ Calc assn again...

READING WEEK... YAY...

9. Study for calc midterm on monday

10. Biz Midterm on friday

11. Stats Test

12. Various assignments...

ahhh, the repetitive routine...

-L

yaaaawwwwwwwwwwn

got cs midterm tmr.

% studied: 0

% wasted: 100%

I hate alge.

>.>

just watch i epically fail -.-

ahhh i hate jobminez >.>

-L

Eternally Bored. And confused about life.

okay, so I need to start picking better places for blogging, but whatever I just feel like rambling on and on right now about nothing...

So I'm in calc tut, where the TA is trying so desperately to make us understand (those of us who are paying attention) exactly how to work certain questions in the new assignment. And I'm just here, trying to figure out the last question.

Quite simply, I don't effing understand, anything. At all.

-...........-

I feel like I'm losing one of my resolutions - which is to understand for the sake of learning and development - not to mechanically churn out assignments and tests like an effing memorizing machine.

So.

::goes back to being a dumbass -.- ::

-L

P.S. goddamnit, I feel soooo fuckiiingggg discourageddddd.... SOB

I hate diagonals.

Jobmine

This thing rlly eats a lot of time... just getting through the format and finding the job postings is a pain... then afterwards - filtering a "short"list is bitch like nothing else.

After 1003492734098230942308 filters, I finally had a list (not short either) for tailoring... me chance for actually getting a job is tres low. But whatever, I'll take it as an experience and just write my heart away... Pray for good fortune. Pray for 2nd round.

Naw, praying is not my style. =P

I'm going to enjoy what may come and tolerate it if it's not particularly enjoyable. hehe.

Here's some notes for myself:
Do Op for NVP
Do Calc
Finish Alge
LEARN STATS (like seriously, wtf is happening in class???)
...
Start various other assns.


Much love,

-L

Oh yawr, tailoring for jobmine is top priority atm.

First day of sem 2.

I have 4 courses on mon/wed, 1 on tu/thurs and 3 on fri,
so here's today overview:

calc - the teacher is not a prof, but he's awesome (some short grad student XD)... class goes pretty fast but generally understandable - at least for now.

biz - prof has effectively, once again for the upteenth time, scared half of the class - but iz getting old. XD one gets a feeling of being treated as a kidengardener... but today was just the outline - maybe her actual teaching will be good. pending.

alge - if the prof was speaking in chinese - i'm 100% sure the class would be way more effective... as it is, he's not, and hence, the class is horrible - "what's going on" happens a lot - might consider switching (though unlikely because getting from laurier to loo in 10 mins is not fun)

stats - fun class mostly cuz the guy talked about nothing... and he's a sexyyyy man XD ok not the main reason =P but no weekly assignments, should be good

yes i'm very bored.

-L

CS take 2

I am dead.

-L

CS

so... I've calculated my approx lvl of doomness... I wont fail unless I fail the exam >.>

I guess that's comforting T_T

Anyway, gonna start studying now.

Reading everything................. how can i ever be ready for this T_T

-L

not too much of a waste of life, but almost.

econ. how I overestimated you. again.

now I shall relax and sleep and wait for true hell - cs.

-L

waste of my life x2

just like biz, calc has proven to be a waste of study time... absolutely pointless...

it wasn't hard... and once again i concentrated on the wrong thing - I just I just have a tendency to misinterpreting every prof/TA w/e XD

Anyway, now I'm going to do another all-nighter doing econ yayyyyyy soooo funnnnnn i mean i can't even express how FUUUUUUUN it's going to be...

just watch me concentrate on the wrong things AGAIN >.<

-L

Studying for calc feels like self-induced torture.

I dont think this is how it should be...

I feel like I'm not remembering anything... and to stop this kinda torture I am blogging like 3 times in one day -__- geez that definitely doesnt help
I want it to be over with but I also want to do decently well... but that is becoming more and more impossible... this exam is also worth 60% which just means I'm more f'ed that usual... how tragic

Anyway I'm just mindlessly writing random crap now and nothing is really making sense; at least I still go for proper punctuation grammar >.> but obviously nothing else...


Anyway I think I'll go back to trying to stuff info into my head and tmr morning i'm going to crash and burn and forget everything... 9AM exams are NOT fun ... oh well we'll see what happens

time to do the best that i can with my cursory knowledge of calculus >.>

this xmas will be consisting of me rethinking math >.> ...reevaluation why I'm here and whether those reasons are valid to continue investment ... which is feeling closer and closer to failure by the moment...

::sigh:: bad decisions just keep coming and coming.

-L

Before 2 (well, 3, but meh), After 2

Biz - totally wasted my time studying for this... it was not hard and i concentrated on all the wrong things... and even then iz not hard so you can imagine ... complete waste of time

...and because of this:
alge - fucked. didnt know how to do last q worth 11/90 marks... and will definitely get a lot of the other q's wrong cuz i'm just like that ... wasnt rlly into the checking up stuff thing... hopefully i get a decent mark... decent is all i ask for, oh high and mighty alge deities... surprisingly the proofs werent that hard... but the solving ones were... lez just stop here.

to look forward to:

calc - fucked. the exam looks hardcore and I'm not in the best condition to be studying/focusing -__- hopefully i get my act together in the nxt 5 mins after i post this

econ - shud be okay, but i'm prolly jinxing myself to hell right here, but whatever I'll deal with that. just have to learn the stuff after midterm2 and then review the first two - hopefully i retained some knowledge and didnt just forget everything i've spent so much time doing... XDDD help me MC gods XD

hopefully i dont get owned by calc THAT much and i'll have a clear mind tmr to cram for econ XD ...

then after:
rest

+

HARDCORE cs studying... I dont fucking care, I am going to fucking own that fucking son of a bitch exam... I have no choice.

at least I have a drive/reason to pwn it =P

then after that - home. rest. do as lisa suggested. then rest some more. hang with some ppl. tho i cant go back to ottawa =( ... will have myself a fucking great x-mas and then pwn nxt sem XDDD cept I'll get owned by trying to get a job... but we'll see XD

-L

Okay, definitely f'ed.

Am reading the BIZ txtbk + lab manual = extent of my studying... because it's basically what the review sheet asks me to do...

Osmosis is NOT working =(

:: dies ::

tmr will be alge study time, hopefully THAT will be more productive... ahhh i just want to get it over with... even tho i know at this state i might as well kiss all possible marks good bye =(

:: silent scream ::

xmas, give me some relief... I swear I'm going to sleep like the dead for 2 wks after exams... >.>

MAJOR shut-eye.

till then my beloved sleep, I shall slave away till wee hours of the morn. ::hanky::

-L

P.S. it appears to me that I've done quite a fair share of mindless droning on this blog... about time that I labeled it as such - I know I'm late... but, well, fuck that. XD

Nothing new.

so my exam schedules are pretty interesting - I'm just starting to study, cuz I procrastinate to maximum proportions, hopefully I dont get f'ed XD

Biz - Fri 6:30 PM
Alge - Sat 12:30 PM

Calc - Tues 9:00 AM
ECON - Wed 9:00 AM

CS - Tues Dec 16 12:30 PM

yawr... no high achieving need here. XD

Except CS - that must be pwned.

and Econ too - cuz I need to feel good about myself -_-

happy procrastinating XD

-L

I got pwned.

CS.
Never will share anything again.

My already down mark is gonna get another kick in the nuts -_-

and that letter... I'm so f'ed.

Well, I guess I'll never do that again.

Hopefully I learn.

-L