Hm.

I am contemplating something.
You can't lose what you put in the middle.

Suppose I want to win something...

choices, choices...

-L

So tired.

I don't get algebra.
Business bores me to death.
Calculus... I don't even want to think about it.
CS ... can go to hell. In fact, it has >.>
I am doomed for ECON.

-L

Life Experience

The last time I cried was about grade 10 I think. For some trivial reason that isn't relevant until this moment.

Well technically I've cried twice in a week now. Today has been a trying day. I am in the midst of it as I type this.
I've decided that I am crying because I miss home... even though I've only lived at Toronto home for 2 months... but that is definitely what I mean. I miss everything that comforted me. It's not even because I'm intimidated by school anymore. I've decided that excelling is no longer important... and yet I still cry. The sounds I make are strange to me, and it just makes me cry more.
I'm looking for the peace that such storms promise at the end. But they dont come, and I continue the storm.

I want to go home. But most importantly, I want to not want to go home. I want to not feel this. Not be affected by every little thing. My nose is congested now. I know that if I have enough will and shut my mouth I would be able to stop all this.

One thing is for sure, I'm not ladylike in crying at all. Violent is the best way to describe this experience right now.

I guess I should go back to reading about stocks and bonds again...

tears are of the moment. and I so desire the moment right now. think of nothing else...

-L

Homer song

"dough - the stuff, that gets me beer
ray - the guys that sells me beer,
me - the guy, that drinks the beer,
far - a long run to get the beer...
so - i'll have another beer...
la - i'll have another beer...
tea? no thanks i'm drinking beer!
that would bring us back to DOUGH!"

-Homer Simpson

-L

One Month Review

okay, so university started off pretty slow, but it sped up in like one week. so that was surprising.

assignments - I stay up till 3 am on a regular basis... thus that is a bad thing. must correct in the near future.
tests - i dont want to talk about it
and I have nothing else to say...

note to self - sign up online for stockmarket competition DURING THE WKEND!!! pay money!!

PS: life is good. =)