I got pwned.

CS.
Never will share anything again.

My already down mark is gonna get another kick in the nuts -_-

and that letter... I'm so f'ed.

Well, I guess I'll never do that again.

Hopefully I learn.

-L

getting a life.

okay, so this semester, I'm in homestretch now, and a lot of major problems is happening and iz just generally pissing me off something awful, but that's not the point.

what IS the point is that I realized I need to get a life. Yes, that is my goal for next semester. a life is in serious need ... or I know I am going to crash and burn.

What does a life mean?

Well, considering I'm feeling very low motivation towards doing work... what the hell made me think math degree is a good idea? I am losing focus on the big picture - if there is indeed one... and the specific details are not helping the situation. i just feel no purpose. and that isn't helpful.

i have to give myself something to help pass through this university life. because i know if i don't i am going to succumb to weakness... run away, all that jolly good stuff -__-

anyway, just 20 more days left to go... why does it feel so exhausting ='( Maybe I should just stop thinking about it and mechanically go through the motions... and it might last okay for a while, but then I'll prolly off myself ... so bad idea.

oh hell, i hope this deranged emoness dies soon... I so need to go home this wkend >.>

-L

p.s. i did something rlly stupid today as well... first flash of weakness.

So my blog is a Doer's Blog...

ESTP - The Doers
[ESTP]

The active and play-ful type. They are especially attuned to people and things around them and often full of energy, talking, joking and engaging in physical out-door activities.

The Doers are happiest with action-filled work which craves their full attention and focus. They might be very impulsive and more keen on starting something new than following it through. They might have a problem with sitting still or remaining inactive for any period of time.
Analysis
This show what parts of the brain that were dominant during writing.

Okay, I dont know how to import this chart... because it's not an image >.> oh wellz, iz pretty much a green triangle on the left >.>

-L

P.S. I am SOOO not a Doer >.> As proof, I've sat in this spot for ... at least 5 hours >.>

There is no certainty.

only opportunity.

-L

Major Effing Issues.

Okay, so this is the first weekend where I don't have a midterm to study for on monday...
but that's not saying much considering next week is the last week of classes... >.> so my prog is f'ed up. XD

But saying that just makes me feel even more stupid and useless... because I have not yet accomplished anything <.< ...

It's not that I don't want to. It's probably because I have no courage. But mostly it's because I am frozen. And I run. Yes I'm a moving snowperson >.> My humour is gone to hell recently too... so that's probably not a good sign... When that leaves me, I might as well be nonexistent.

Must drown self in sorrows by shopping until my checkbook bleeds XD no, but prolly not. XD

Anyway I'm seriously considering the chicken way out of this... to partially ease myself, but it's sooo against my dignity... >.> sigh, I dont think I have much of that left either.
But maybe that's a good thing.

Anyway, 3 more assignments + Presentation, and iz EXAM TIME.

Can't wait for first semester to be over.

Can't wait for a new beginning. Maybe then I can change.

-L

Decision

nothing.

... haha, f that =P
and I dont mean "function" that >.>

the feeling of giving up is not worth it. XD

-L