Zeitgeist

So I've just watched the Zeitgeist, which is a Really good movie.
It talks about some of the conspiracies, focusing mostly in USA today... I've heard about some of them and I've written them off as dumb ideas that are obviously too absurd to be true... surely? Everyone around me, peers and teachers... have laughed them off as stupid ideas that cannot be true... using the same strain as thought as I do...

but.

the world really is going to hell in a handbasket... and I feel absolutely dumbfounded from the lack of knowledge and understanding that I have for the world around me... the media is even more of a brainwasher than I had previously thought... the world painted in the immediate future is absolutely scary. crazy and yet no one seems to be aware of it... soon we will welcome it with open arms. it is so fucked up. Why is the public - the American public mostly - being blind to this? This is really fucked up. I hope, sincerely, that none of the stuff shown in the Zeitgeist is true... but I feel that wishful thinking is the sin on my part. it's disgusting. the controllers of our nations ... worlds of democracy, free will, rights and liberties, all that beautiful stuff our forefathers have fought and died for... are bringing us to our knees... our economies, societies. yet we see nothing past the blinding propaganda of modern media... "you've got to get mad. you've got to say... I'm a human being goddamnit, my life has value!" ... it's so fucking stupid I cant even word my thoughts.......

God fucking damn it.

Anyway, here's what Bill Hick ends his show with... which was in part used in the end of the movie Zeitgeist:

The world is like a ride in an amusement park. And when you choose to go on it, you think it's real because that's how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and round and round. It has thrills and chills and it's very brightly colored and it's very loud and it's fun, for a while. Some people have been on the ride for a long time and they begin to question, is this real, or is this just a ride? And other people have remembered, and they come back to us, they say, "hey - don't worry, don't be afraid, ever, because, this is just a ride..." And we... kill those people. "Shut him up." "We have a lot invested in this ride. Shut him up. Look at my furrows of worry. Look at my big bank account and my family. This just has to be real."

Just a ride. But we always kill those good guys who try and tell us that, you ever notice that? And let the demons run amok. But it doesn't matter because: It's just a ride. And we can change it anytime we want. It's only a choice. No effort, no work, no job, no savings and money. A choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your doors, buy guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love, instead, see all of us as one. Here's what we can do to change the world, right now, to a better ride. Take all that money that we spend on weapons and defenses each year and instead spend it feeding and clothing and educating the poor of the world, which it would many times over, not one human being excluded, and we could explore space, together, both inner and outer, forever, in peace.

This sums it up quite beautifully.

The world... how I ...

-L

Immediate Thoughts

basically i've forgotten all of my mathematical training... i suppose one year of repose is too much for something that cannot fix in my mind at first glance... there are some stuff that do fix...

this, instead of demoralizing me - although it did do that at first - has made me see more clearly what i'm made of... and what would make me feel better in the future, i suppose. i'm not the immortal absorber of info ppl may mistake me for... although sometimes i'm surprised by certain extend of my cramming skills... for subjects that retain in my mind... and then, there's math... absolutely no retaining skill whatsoever. i've forgotten the basics and although i can grasp concepts easily at first learning, i cannot recall them to my disposal in times of need. this is somewhat a paradox, but here's the proof, alas.

but i'm just currently in a state of calm. no stress. no hurry. it's certainly not the end of the world, just a rather helpful future-reference realization. -sigh- this lack of drive is quite troubling.

anyway, i think i'll just face whatever is ahead of me. in any case, all i can think of for the past hour is the food i'm going to eat tomorrow... pizza? burgers? sandwich? greek? ionno... it seems a rather out-of-place thought process, but it will not go away, nor would i want it to... maybe this is my escapist syndrome... hmm... at least it's towards something pleasant... maybe it's just a result of my hunger at the current moment. i donno. i feel the defeat in my bones, yet i've only done so to myself... perhaps mentally closing a few more doors within myself... if there were any open in the first place. now i'm not making any sense, maybe my subconscious just likes to write and write as if there is something important to say, even though my eyes can only follow the systematic scrolling of the letters as they appear via the magic of computer keyboard... i feel dull. the knife no longer wavers, the edge no longer sharp... how i wish for it to feel keen again.

maybe i'm just feeling drowsy from my nap... -yawn- yes i actually did at this very moment. hmm, a series of moments eh. whatever just doesnt cut it yet.

i'll see.

i feel like writing again.

-L

W. B. Yeats

so, for my english summative assignment (ISU) I have to analyze some poems by a poet of my choice and basically form an argument on how the poet saw the world... or whatnot... opinions on the subject depending on which poems I'm using...

I donno if i shud use similar poems or different ones... prolly different ones... because there are several (4) that I like by yeats.

anyway, for my personal record... these are the poems I'll be using:

Sailing to Byzantium
Lake Isle of Innisfree
An Irish Airman Foresees His Death
The Circus Animals' Desertion

and maybe Aedh Wished for Cloths of Heaven - although it's a bit on the short side XD

-L

Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust

I've decided not to watch the first Vampire Hunter D movie because I saw some pics of it... the animation is TOO inferior to my current norm... and I dont think I can stand it, no matter how much it is praised.

Bloodlust, however, has way better graphics than the original, it goes without saying... and the storyline much better... not as stereotypical as the original, anyway. I've always thought of vampires as awesome, so that's prolly why I liked this storyline a lot.

D is awesome as per usual... the depiction is beautiful... I love the parasite hand - with his quirky remarks (note that I watched the English version... and I enjoyed it... I usually hate English versions =P)

Fight scenes - just wow. Yes, vampires against each other... hawtness. XDDD *whispery heart* lolz.

My favourite line: old man: now get out of here, I'm getting tired. seriously - it makes sense with context. It's a heartfelt and humourous scene all at once ^^

Anyway, definite good experience.

-L

Blood+

So I've watched this 50-episode series... and I'm gonna write a brief review of it... just so to write off this life-wasting chapter in my life.

This took an exceeding amount of time... altho only within 3 days ... I didnt sleep much, and nothing productive, needless to say, was accomplished during this mind-numbing anime session. Time to do some justice.

So I began watching this mostly because I wanted to see a vampire-based anime (and after I watched this I subsequently watched Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust - GOOD movie). So I began this series. It's quite slow at first, and the stories are relatively detached... but I LUVED the flashbacks... and it was quite artistically formed together, like mosaic. I appreciate the art work... definitely anime, but some realistic features, like BLOOD (yes bloooood), are very well done. I've seen Blood the Last Vampire... and altho the two are completely different in story, and general feel... I luv them equally for what they separately are.

Blood+ is more... PG. Not that there's no blood... sure there is plenty, and a rape scene (implied) no less. But the more anime-like drawings and lighter mood makes it pretty tamed. That is something I did not like. It's not vampire/dark/scary enough. But to its target audience, it's definitely a pretty good show... I lasted through 50 eps of it... it must be good =P

Plot - very well done. The past and present link nicely together. Although it was PRETTY predictable wuz going to happen, esp near the end... the amount of people that died and such were not. OOOO SOLOMON!!! The supposed "love triangles" and relationships are quite unorthodox... although I did not like the eventual (albeit implied, not rlly) pairings... w/e it was at the very end, so not much suffering on my part. Hehehe.

Characters - very vivid. each character stayed with personality, and each are pretty unique and likable. Character formation in terms of physical attributes and connection to storyline is very well done as well... I enjoyed the Queens concept. But the ending blood not working because of pregnancy... geez... that's pathetic. XD

Anyway I liked the main character, Saya. My favourite secondary character is Solomon. I LOVE THEM!!! WHY DOES HE HAVE TO DIE!!! AND SUCH A PATHETIC DEATH TOO!!!

Okay, enough of that.

Anyway, I'll review some more stuff... for my own benefit.

-L

Strange Occurences...

I dont know... the state of affairs at school is just being mightily f'ed up right now. people's hatred and suspicions rising like a stiff fog...

it's strange. it takes so little to convince so many. and it saddens me, that this is the sort of world we live in. where hate is so easily brewed and spread. and people gather around it like a bonfire, the flickering flames reflected in their shadowed eyes... I dont want a world like this.

faith. such a gentle word, so hard to achieve. not the religious faith... but it definitely stems from similar roots... and sometimes one should have faith in someone else... and not immediately throw all kindness to the wind.

cruelty, thy name is man.

I wish for good health on you. your friends are here. =)

-L