Some thoughts on the new year

... these come to mind when I think of a new beginning (technically there are no new beginnings, but w/e I like the ring of it):

Talk to more people (in general).
Make some new friends. (seriously lacking skill in this department)
Get involved. Must make time.
Study just a couple beats ahead instead of on the beat >.> which is what I feel like I did before... very exhausting, and unhealthy in the long run - also not good for retaining info.
Do assignments a few days before instead of the day before - very annoying.
Get organized. Hmm broad eh XD

Take some time off to do stuff instead of lazying around.
Do some sports. Or my body will melt into a goo of immobility.
etc etc.

We'll see how you go, 2009.

-L

Merry Christmas!

Hope everyone have lots of fun this holiday season =)

Best wishes.

-L

Happy Birthday!

to Lisa,

may you make all your desires come true. =)

...one year at a time, man =P

-L

Without You

For one memorable part of my past:

...
Called you up cause its been long enough
And you said that you were so much better
We have done a lot of growing up
We were never meant to be together
...


<3
-L

Home.

Not gonna think about anything academic anymore.

Time to get some beauty sleep... and play =)

quote of the moment:
If I say hi and you say hi back, then we're probably off to a good start.

CS take 2

I am dead.

-L

CS

so... I've calculated my approx lvl of doomness... I wont fail unless I fail the exam >.>

I guess that's comforting T_T

Anyway, gonna start studying now.

Reading everything................. how can i ever be ready for this T_T

-L

Pesta

-L

okay, some issues again.

this should ring a warning bell sign... it's just so used by me now >.>

Anyway, so I was doing econ exam... and I had one hr left and I was like maybe I want to check over everything... I read a few q's and I'm like fuuuck this I dont care - too anticlimatic and I'm not interested in reducing my already strained sanity into more futility...

so I saw that certain person had left.

So I was like... okay I am definitely leaving, no way am I staying longer XDD Who says I need to -________-

this is the extend of my being pathetic to the max.

p.s. yay, new tag. XD

-L

not too much of a waste of life, but almost.

econ. how I overestimated you. again.

now I shall relax and sleep and wait for true hell - cs.

-L

waste of my life x2

just like biz, calc has proven to be a waste of study time... absolutely pointless...

it wasn't hard... and once again i concentrated on the wrong thing - I just I just have a tendency to misinterpreting every prof/TA w/e XD

Anyway, now I'm going to do another all-nighter doing econ yayyyyyy soooo funnnnnn i mean i can't even express how FUUUUUUUN it's going to be...

just watch me concentrate on the wrong things AGAIN >.<

-L

Studying for calc feels like self-induced torture.

I dont think this is how it should be...

I feel like I'm not remembering anything... and to stop this kinda torture I am blogging like 3 times in one day -__- geez that definitely doesnt help
I want it to be over with but I also want to do decently well... but that is becoming more and more impossible... this exam is also worth 60% which just means I'm more f'ed that usual... how tragic

Anyway I'm just mindlessly writing random crap now and nothing is really making sense; at least I still go for proper punctuation grammar >.> but obviously nothing else...


Anyway I think I'll go back to trying to stuff info into my head and tmr morning i'm going to crash and burn and forget everything... 9AM exams are NOT fun ... oh well we'll see what happens

time to do the best that i can with my cursory knowledge of calculus >.>

this xmas will be consisting of me rethinking math >.> ...reevaluation why I'm here and whether those reasons are valid to continue investment ... which is feeling closer and closer to failure by the moment...

::sigh:: bad decisions just keep coming and coming.

-L

怎么办

- S.H.E.

怎么办哦怎么办
为什么你为什么
老是把空气全都吸光了
害得我你害得我
在你面前呼吸急促需要叫救护车

别看我先别看我
我的脸红就快要爆料了
没什么哪有什么
我是绝对不会承认我喜欢你了

怎么办感觉甜又酸
偷偷爱你快乐又孤单
怎么办爱却不能讲
你真讨厌不来帮我的忙

你怎么可以这样笑容打败太阳
甚至比我还要更好看
我虽然无力抵挡但是日子还长
总有一天换你为我疯狂

为什么你为什么
这样不讲理的就出现了
害得我你害得我
连仅有的一点矜持优雅全都毁了
靠近我别靠近我
到底离你多近比较好呢
完蛋了我完蛋了
我整个人眼看就快不是我的了

怎么办感觉甜又酸
偷偷爱你快乐又孤单
怎么办爱却不能讲
你真讨厌不来帮我的忙
...

song: 怎么办

-L

Before 2 (well, 3, but meh), After 2

Biz - totally wasted my time studying for this... it was not hard and i concentrated on all the wrong things... and even then iz not hard so you can imagine ... complete waste of time

...and because of this:
alge - fucked. didnt know how to do last q worth 11/90 marks... and will definitely get a lot of the other q's wrong cuz i'm just like that ... wasnt rlly into the checking up stuff thing... hopefully i get a decent mark... decent is all i ask for, oh high and mighty alge deities... surprisingly the proofs werent that hard... but the solving ones were... lez just stop here.

to look forward to:

calc - fucked. the exam looks hardcore and I'm not in the best condition to be studying/focusing -__- hopefully i get my act together in the nxt 5 mins after i post this

econ - shud be okay, but i'm prolly jinxing myself to hell right here, but whatever I'll deal with that. just have to learn the stuff after midterm2 and then review the first two - hopefully i retained some knowledge and didnt just forget everything i've spent so much time doing... XDDD help me MC gods XD

hopefully i dont get owned by calc THAT much and i'll have a clear mind tmr to cram for econ XD ...

then after:
rest

+

HARDCORE cs studying... I dont fucking care, I am going to fucking own that fucking son of a bitch exam... I have no choice.

at least I have a drive/reason to pwn it =P

then after that - home. rest. do as lisa suggested. then rest some more. hang with some ppl. tho i cant go back to ottawa =( ... will have myself a fucking great x-mas and then pwn nxt sem XDDD cept I'll get owned by trying to get a job... but we'll see XD

-L

What's been keeping me alive:

New York New York - Liza Minelli & Luciano Pavarotti

yes...

well actually it doesnt work anymore... so that kinda sux =(

-L

Okay, definitely f'ed.

Am reading the BIZ txtbk + lab manual = extent of my studying... because it's basically what the review sheet asks me to do...

Osmosis is NOT working =(

:: dies ::

tmr will be alge study time, hopefully THAT will be more productive... ahhh i just want to get it over with... even tho i know at this state i might as well kiss all possible marks good bye =(

:: silent scream ::

xmas, give me some relief... I swear I'm going to sleep like the dead for 2 wks after exams... >.>

MAJOR shut-eye.

till then my beloved sleep, I shall slave away till wee hours of the morn. ::hanky::

-L

P.S. it appears to me that I've done quite a fair share of mindless droning on this blog... about time that I labeled it as such - I know I'm late... but, well, fuck that. XD

Nothing new.

so my exam schedules are pretty interesting - I'm just starting to study, cuz I procrastinate to maximum proportions, hopefully I dont get f'ed XD

Biz - Fri 6:30 PM
Alge - Sat 12:30 PM

Calc - Tues 9:00 AM
ECON - Wed 9:00 AM

CS - Tues Dec 16 12:30 PM

yawr... no high achieving need here. XD

Except CS - that must be pwned.

and Econ too - cuz I need to feel good about myself -_-

happy procrastinating XD

-L